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2nd time in Splitville

May. 14th, 2011 | 08:12 pm
location: outside my shell
mood: stressed stressed

where do i go from here?

pagkakita mo pa lang na online ako bigla kang nagoffline?
are you declaring war or break-up?
kasi either ways, i am ready...
do you seriously think i can't live without you?
puhleez, THINK AGAIN.
matagal ko ng namotivate ang sarili ko for this particular moment...
oo, aminado ako, hindi ako nakapagmotivate ng mabuti when it comes on the "hurt" portion...
pero ano pa at naging si HARU ako?
i had survived bago pa man kita nakilala
and i am certain i can do it again this time.
i had been through on more tougher situations,
peanut ka lang compare sa mga situations na yun.

wafu? nakaw, bulag lang ako that time.
my biggest mistake was to fall for you.
get it?
nagdagdag lang ako ng stress sa already stressed na buhay ko.
magsama kayo ng ex ng bestfriend mo, you deserve each other.
bhe? what the fuck.
mahiya naman kayo sa mga balat nyo.

break kung break.
pakiaudit na lang yung mga utang ko sa'yo.
i'm so disappointed i met you.
so disappointed i did an awful mistake again.

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i am heart broken...

Jun. 20th, 2010 | 11:36 am
location: in sad hil
mood: melancholy melancholy

i am distressfully heart broken...by my new found love...just days after our fourth month in our relationship...i could feel he's being cold day a bit...oh how i cry for a couple of days now...what should i do?

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Nov. 8th, 2009 | 07:59 am
location: my room
mood: contemplative contemplative
music: love me like the first time - faith cuneta

You read it right...stupid eri., stupid me...i broke up with the man i love because i was too caught up with cons of our so-called relationship...but why?, why in the world did i ever do that?, is it because i'm too chained, cage...or is it because i'm afraid to stand for him?, i left him when he needed me the most...but...if i didn't pursue a road of my own, more problems will occur...is that really the reason?, or its just an excuse i wanted to disguise as a reason to hide the chip portion of my pride?,

I guess deserved being left., because, i'm,well just because.,

I guess having your someone dead is much better than having him alive then seeing him with another., cruel right?, it hurts, really., it was my fault and i'm not actully prepared at the impact of the thing i did., a punishment worst than death., knowing the man you broke into a million pieces will be crossing your path if not today maybe tommorrow, with the new found happiness radiating around him like a blinding sunlight while you still lurking in the shadows with the pain tugging on you.,

As much as i regret it, moving on is much harder than i thought., pretending its nothing takes it excruciating toll at the end of the day, beautiful cherished memories making your heart swell with anguish and grief leaving you most of the time incorrigible and hard to get by., and i forgot to mention, vulnerable.,

But what more can i do but to look forward and stop looking backwards for awhile., it might help, i hope so it does.,

Well, a cat climbed into my house, white and sweet., old belief says that its a sign of goodluck., its proven so i believe., i wanted to name it keigo but my mom says miyuki is fine since its a she-cat., besides she reasoned that remembering japanese names is somewhat hard for her, as for the rest of the household., so no choice left but to agree...

Saa, its life i guess., i made a wrong move, or whatever wrongness there is on my tactic, i hope i learned from it and never do it again.,

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where would i go from here?

Oct. 30th, 2009 | 02:52 am
location: kitchen at the backyard
mood: tired tired
music: bukas na lang kita mamahalin - lani misalucha

"we don't have to dwell on the painful moments., we won't be able to forget them, even if we wanted to., if you were to smile and have fun for a moment or two, i doubt anyone would blame you for it., some might even be made happier for it..." --fai d. flowright

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Writer's Block: Forgive and forget?

Oct. 26th, 2009 | 07:46 am
location: In my bedroom
mood: apathetic apathetic
music: Minsan Pa - Faith Cuneta

Do you tend to forgive and forget or hold grudges? What is the longest you've ever stayed angry with someone? Is there anything the other person could say or do to win back your friendship and trust?

' .,i sometime hold grudges...you can't blame me., they did me wrong, and its really hard to just forgive and forget...especially if its beyond unforgivable.,

' .,even though i still love my ex-bf, i'm in a state where i often curse him to death.,and the bottom line?, he got a lot of time to take before i can say i forgive and forget.,

' .,to mend?, nope, the sole thing i want him to do is to stand on his own, be independent and grow some spine!

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when the door closes, the window opens

Oct. 25th, 2009 | 06:56 am

tagalog: kapag sumara ang pinto, nagbubukas ang bintana.

' .,that's how i exactly felt right after i solidly decided to call it quits with my ex-fiance...i was rewarded with a work, a good compensation for my broken heart.,

' .,i thought he was the one i'm going to grow old with...alas, a rock from the sky fell right into my head...it knocked a good deal of common sense to me...i hate to admit it but i was placed with a dog collar on my neck for 8 months.,

' .,ok, so aside from work, i'm also going back to writing stories and doing anime drawings...of course, i'm again going to wake my JE appetite once again...also my admiration for the TeniMyu boys who got me started...

' .,at ikw bulateng kisayin ka, manigas ka dyan payatot ka!, humanda ka dahil iihawin na talaga kita!

' .,btw, i love the way bakanishi looks at his AnAn pictorial~

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being someone's wife...

Jul. 12th, 2009 | 10:38 am
location: comshop
mood: cheerful cheerful
music: kat-tun's YOU

ok! so may asawa na ako! so what?!

joke! just went here to update a bit!

1st, i'm now Mrs. Baniqued =) how's that for a start?

and Yuto-kot., pali mong impaktong pitbull ka ha? kesa naman ikaw ang ipost ko dito, baka walang dumalaw dito sa LJ ko no!

that's all for now...i'm kinda in a hurry...but you can bet that i'll be here often in days to come!

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miura haruma - anime style!

Oct. 27th, 2008 | 01:09 pm
location: my obachan's house
mood: cool
music: mayonaka no shadow boy - hey say JUMP!

oh minna do forgive me if my haruma anime T.T i hope that you like it nonetheless =) this is a gift for my very sweet gerlynne(ge_chan) who loves Yuto Nakajima and Haruma Miura so much~

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and to my friend kate(ryuuki05), here's the link to my other works, hope you like it!

kenshin no hime gallery...ga dancing-icicle

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the life of being single | back to ueda

Aug. 15th, 2008 | 10:48 am
location: cafe shop
mood: happy happy
music: blue tuesday > KAT-TUN

hoe~ tadaima minna-sama~

devel_icious, yay, happy that you're just there... i will come back soon, just have to fix some things here =)

yamace_06, ' .,GRACE!!!!!!!! baket nagpost ka ng ganoon sa kattunlove????. ' ., ikaw talaga (^^,)....anyways, youkoso de livejournal~

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Miura Haruma | Ueda Tatsuya

Jul. 20th, 2008 | 09:52 am
location: interner shop
mood: happy
music: affection -- KAT-TUN

tadaima minna~ =) devel_icious, sister, how are you? i miss you so much...so how was it going with Endless Dreamers?

mashiro_tsuki, and you, how's school? i hope you're doing great...
vixky89, imouto, how's college and Masaaki?
madel5566, i miss you~


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nikattun, thanks for adding me again =) your LJ is a lot nicer compare to mine =)

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